Raw and honest moment – At times when I look at my life it appears that I am living in a “disaster zone”. It seems like chaos in many areas of my life right now. There are things happening that are completely out of my control.
But I know that when I take my eyes off the Lord and look to my mess, that’s when I lose my balance.
When I look to Jesus, when I look to the Word, I remember the truth — the truth that He’s got me. He’s my rock.
The TRUTH that He knows my situation.
The TRUTH that sometimes He allows things to be torn down so that He can step in and build something that’s better.
The TRUTH that He loves me.
The TRUTH that He has good things in store for me.
1 Peter 1:6-9,
“In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the end result of your faith, the salvation of your souls.”
Just because everything might seem to be in a disarray of disaster, doesn’t mean that’s the full story. It’s part of the process. It’s only part. There’s more to the story.
When I feel like I’m off the beaten path, behind, out of control, overwhelmed, unprepared, disorganized, used-up, unqualified, ain’t got it together…
I know that this is the point of when I can be the most expectant of Him.
This is when I need to just lean even harder.
I know that this is when the Lord can step in.
When I am at my least, my weakest, my breaking point, this is when He can be everything.
I know that when it seems like He “should have stepped in by now” the truth is He’s near. I will rejoice in who He is. I will rejoice in knowing that He is good, that even though I don’t know what He’s up to, I know His character, and I know that He is good.
I’ll be honest, I had a moment yesterday afternoon where I became overcome with a sense of frustration about the current situation I’m in. I laid down to see if a nap might help, but I could tell I was sinking deeper into a not-so-good frame of mind.
Suddenly I heard, “Get up”
I knew what I needed to do. “Okay, Lord.” I got up, and I turned on some praise and worship music, I opened my bible, and I just let it out– I cried out to the Lord. I reminded myself of His promises. I cried out to the Lord, and I worshiped Him.
It was like the most refreshing Spring rain.
There are many going through various trials and hardships right now. My trial seems so small in comparison to others, when I put it into perspective. When I look at it compared to Him.
But this morning the phrase that has been within me for a little while now,
“(Breakthrough). It’s just around the corner!” was confirmed to me.
It jumped within me.
I know He’s working. He’s doing things behind the scenes. Good things, exciting things.
It’s just like what I heard Him say to me a few weeks ago, when I felt like it didn’t apply in that moment (ha!)
“I Am Abundance”
He’s everything. He’s got me. He is there. I can trust my Heavenly Father.
I know that He has promised me to be everything I could ever need.