I love how when we seek the Lord about something in our hearts–when we ask Him to search our hearts for anything that could be trying to cause issue with what He could be wanting to do –He is ready and willing to reveal that thing to us. Isn’t that such a relief? He’s ready to help us deal with that “next thing” at just the right time…
In doing that, I discovered and uncovered another area of fear in my life yesterday…
The fear of misleading. The fear of what saying the “wrong” or “incorrect” or “inaccurate” thing could do. Fear of doing something wrong, and the consequences of that.
Guess what that kind of fear makes me want to do? Yep. Shut down. Interesting, right?
What this showed me is it’s an area where I need to honestly examine my level of trust in the Lord and in His capability. Forgetting my own. Not relying on my own.
There are just some things that are not meant to be my responsibility.
Some responsibilities belong to the Lord, and only to the Lord. How funny and ridiculous that I find myself trying to take them on myself sometimes. How ridiculous that I would try to take something out of His hands as my own responsiblity.
The truth is, I can trust Him to lead me, and I can trust Him to give me the right things to say when He leads me to something. I can trust Him to follow through on what He leads me to.
Sometimes we wonder, don’t we? We wonder if we’ve said and done the right things. It’s easy to second-guess… and then second-guess and second-guess and then… worry. This is a safe and healthy thing at level 1, but once that cycle starts going, I can see the uncovering and revealing of insecurity as the root, as the issue that causes the distortion. The uncovering of another area of fear.
So thank You, Lord, for faithfully uncovering the “next thing” You have led me to face. I’m thankful that we get to face these things together, Father. I’m thankful that You always show yourself true and You always show Yourself strong in all of my weaknesses. You’ll let nothing get in our way, when we walk together! Thank you that I can trust You, and thank You for your patience as I am truly learning to.
“The season has changed, the bondage of your barren winter has ended, and the season of hiding is over and gone. The rains have soaked the earth and left it bright with blossoming flowers. The season for singing and pruning the vines has arrived. I hear the cooing of doves in our land, filling the air with songs to awaken you and guide you forth. Can you not discern this new day of destiny breaking forth around you? The early signs of my purposes and plans are bursting forth. The budding vines of new life are now blooming everywhere. The fragrance of their flowers whispers, “There is change in the air.” Arise, my love, my beautiful companion, and run with me to the higher place. For now is the time to arise and come away with me.” -Song of Songs 2:11-13 The Passion Translation (TPT)