Is it okay that many of these thoughts may not make a lot of sense to anyone but myself? Or perhaps they will… but is it okay that I ramble a bit?
It feels like we are right now in a time of “in-between”…. a time of “just on the verge” and a time of “just around the corner”… and we’ve got to keep pushing through.
Doesn’t it seem like the time of “almost” can be even harder in a way?
We’re hanging onto hope, we’re hanging onto God’s promises in the Word, we’re hanging onto the things He’s showed us, and life is in this crazy “in between” place right now.
For some, things are still and quiet, and others have found themselves on the front lines of a raging battle, both mentally and physically.
Some are suddenly facing depression and anxiety on a level they’ve never dealt with before.
Some are suddenly feeling dull, even numb —perhaps even apathetic about doing anything anymore, maybe they even feel as though their life is “fading away”… and they’re beginning to lose sight of their dreams, their vision for their lives. Maybe it’s even hard to pray anymore, because of the weariness.
We’re at the place where it’s starting to get harder for many to “keep going” in this time that we’re in, in the things that we are facing right now.
We’re at that place where we’re going to need a fresh, second wind in order to finish the race, in order to push through to what’s next.
A “Second wind is the “flush of relief” when your muscles finally get the oxygen they need. Increased oxygen utilization combined with a decrease in lactic acid production creates euphoria in the middle of the race, and could be what we call second wind.”
As I’m sitting here, and I look out the window, I see one of our mourning doves, sitting there on the power line looking in. It’s just one of the many ways God gets my attention, it’s just one of the ways He calms me with these reminders of who He is, His beautiful character.
Many times in 2019, one of the hardest years of my life, I would be at my wits end, and I’d turn and look out the window and see the dove sitting there, looking in at me. It has somehow become one of those kinds of moments that just stops me in my tracks, and I think of my Heavenly Father, knowing that in that very moment, He’s turned toward me, He’s with me, and He’s speaking to me to remind me of who He is.
I do have such a peace right now, a peace concerning the outcome of the virus, a peace concerning outcome of the economy, even a peace during this time of waiting, waiting, waiting, but I do feel as though I am waking up from a time of stillness and rest, even a feeling of “hibernation” and it’s like I am feeling as though I’m about ready to run!
Yet still, there is almost this, “not quite finished yet, but almost, get ready” kind of feeling in the place of “stillness” that I’m in… I wonder if there’s something more that God is wanting to do within this time of the last part of the stillness?
Isn’t it strange how this time has felt like a time of recovery and rest, and yet at the same time, it has felt like “pressing through” to hang onto hope, to not get sucked into fear.
“Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” —Galatians 6:9
“Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.” —Mark 10:27
“but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” —Isaiah 40:31
“For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay.” —Habakkuk 2:3
“Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD” —Psalm 27:14
I trust You, Father. Help me to be in tune with what You’re wanting me to grasp right now, in this time, so that I’ll be completely ready for what You have next.