Confession: Sometimes I need reminding that the world is much bigger and deeper than this little piece of ground I’ve found myself standing on.
Sometimes I desperately need a moment of realization…that there are much more important and urgent things going on in this world, than just my little life and all that I have going on in my part of the planet.
How easy it is to get wrapped up and distracted by things that don’t really even really matter in the slightest right now.
I really haven’t wanted to write about this… because it’s so heavy…but now I have to.
The truth is, there are some really dark and horrific things happening around us… things that have been under the surface and underlying for a really long time.
Things that are starting to come to the surface finally…
And it’s not what you’ve been seeing on the surface… it’s not what has been screaming at you in the airwaves…
But what has been growing in darkness is now coming into the light. ☀️
…Light that is revealing this horrific and heartbreaking tragedy of injustice… 💔
The truth is… it’s a big mess…. and the truth is, it’s a reality that is extremely hard look at.
This once ‘hidden’ tragedy of injustice…has now been exposed…and more is coming to the surface every day.
But are we willing to look at it to see it? To realize the reality of it?
And the truth is, yes, it could be easier to just tune it out and go on pretending it’s not real because “I can’t see it”…and because “it’s not really affecting my life”….but the hard truth is…. it is. 🥀
A true realization of the current condition of our worldwide situation takes us through a “grieving process”…
…For our world and for mankind and for those who are suffering….
…And for God’s heart.
…And for how He must feel about it all. He feels deeply…
And it makes me angry that I get so wrapped up in my own stuff. 😡
It makes me angry that evil has “gotten away” with so much. It makes me angry that evil is so utterly soaked into our world and within… hearts.
Hearts that God Himself designed for good…
There are so many questions I have…
“God, what is this doing in Your heart? Are you grieving? Are you angry? Father, You’re a Defender, You’re a Protector…how You must be grieving in Your heart for those who are defenseless right now… how You must long to do something… and You are…. but at the same time, so much depends on us… the people You have created to be Your hands and feet and Your voice in this earth.”
“God how do we even fix this? What does this even mean?”
“God it’s too big for us to fix, it’s too big for us to carry… and yet, as mankind, we’re the ones who’ve allowed this mess to happen. God, we so desperately need You in order to be able to do something about all of this…”
It can be quite overwhelming and heavy if you’re a highly sensitive person like me —at times so overwhelming it may be tempting to try and tune it all out.
But that time is over. It’s all over.
And it’s time to see the good, the bad, and the ugly.
It’s time to realize what’s really going on.
It’s time to realize the harm these hidden injustices have caused…
It’s time to do our part as the church.
God help us.
Yes, it’s time to grieve, and sometimes we have to allow things to painfully “break us open” and it’s okay… God is grieving in His heart too.
But it’s also time for me to do my part…
And it’s up to me, to ask God… “What’s my part in this? What does that look like for my life, God?”
What if in the time talking with Him about these things, and by partnering with the Holy Spirit in prayer, things happen that actually create change?
What if, instead of burying our heads in the sand, we face what’s hard to look at and we allow ourselves to grieve along with God’s heart?
Yes, it’s painful. Yes, it’s inconvenient.
And yes, it’s necessary.
Oh God, help us. Forgive us for not paying attention. We’ve stepped into a new day that we don’t know how to handle. I can’t imagine how Your heart must feel right now. We don’t know how to deal with this big, ugly mess that’s been discovered right under our noses…. it’s too big, it’s too overwhelming, it’s too horrific…. but God it’s not bigger than You. You know what needs to be done, and You offer each one of us a part in the solution of it all, until You come and wipe it all away.
Help us to know our part for “right now” and give us wisdom and grace and courage to be able to rise up, and do it.
“Because of the devastation of the afflicted, because of the groaning of the needy, now I will arise,” says the Lord; “I will set him in the safety for which he longs.” —Psalm 12:5