A situation happened a few weeks ago where I let my own thoughts crowd out the voice of the Lord. After I missed the opportunity to speak it out (which would have been conquering a specific fear) the Lord very quickly confirmed to me that I did hear His voice. He was speaking to me, and yes, it DID matter.
I’ll be honest with you and tell you that after that happened, I beat myself up and allowed shame and defeat to swoop in and pull me down for a little bit.
After I spent some time with the Lord and brought it to Him, asking Him to help me through it, all of that went away and I was able to see how much He loved me and how He forgives me in those situations and He is ultimately still always proud of me because I am His child. After spending that time with Him, I was able to see this as a learning opportunity and continue moving forward again.
Since then I’ve been on the journey of learning to DECIDE to be obedient up front, but also since then I’ve felt more of a hunger to learn about the qualities of His voice, and how to tune into His frequency so that I am ready for those quick, quiet words that sort of seem to be highlighted among my own thoughts.
He showed me that I have to be first willing to hear.
I asked the Lord, “Lord, let Your voice be so clear that I have no doubts that it’s You and I have no choice but to jump and obey because I KNOW!”
Well, I’m no expert on this, but I have a feeling that the more time I spend with Him, and the more I am obedient and close with Him, the more I will be able to recognize His voice. Isn’t it that way with friends we talk with? The more time we spend with them, the more we can recognize their voice.
Saying ALL of this, I’m so thankful for a loving Father God who is proud of me simply because I am His child. He knows I make mistakes and stumble sometimes, but He lovingly picks me back up, and teaches me how to continue moving forward. I’m so thankful for that.
P.S. The song on my heart and replaying right now: “Whisper” by Jason Upton