“Yet those who wait for the LORD Will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired, They will walk and not become weary.” – Isaiah 40:31
In this journey, I am finding that often times I am only able to see far enough for the next step.
I don’t have a lot of time in advance to figure out how I’m going to get over a tricky place in the path. I just have to keep taking steps, not allowing a rock to cause me to stumble and fall, and not letting a distraction pull me to the side.
And sometimes it feels like I come to a clearing where I can see for miles. Such a time of encouragement and clarity!
I know I am going towards something, I just don’t know what the path will look like on the way there. I don’t know how strenuous this trail will be.
Oh how I love to know what to expect. Haha I’ll even try and cook something up in my mind just so I can lean on some form of idea or expectation. How silly and pointless is this though? It’s not about the comfort of knowing what to expect, it’s about taking those steps regardless.
Letting go of the “safeties” I have placed over my life is scary. But I can’t let this be my concern. I can’t dwell on this. He is worth the adventure, as much as I love safety. I know that there is far more safety in Him than any safety I attempt for myself.
I think there is something necessary and purposeful about taking those blind steps in the journey. It’s in those kinds of steps that we have to let go of the idea that kicking and screaming will do any good, and just hold His hand and move forward. It’s in those steps that we build strength.
Sometimes I’ll find myself thinking things like, “Come on, Lord, we’re close, can You give me just a little bit of an idea? That would help me so much, you know? I would really love to know what to expect.” Haha 🙂 When we ask “What?” or “Why?” and the Lord doesn’t tell us the answer…I know there’s a reason for that. I know that the journey He’s taking me on will lead me to what I’ll need to know, and in the time I need to know it.
This is where I am. Learning to be content in this part of the journey. He’s gotten me this far, I know I can trust Him to lead me to where I need to be going.
“and you have perseverance and have endured for My name’s sake, and have not grown weary.” – Revelation 2:3
-Heather