I can now see how the events leading up today have led me to a deep discovery.
A discovery of a deep root of “rejection” that was so deeply rooted I couldn’t even see it to recognize it, in fact I realize now that I saw it as “part of me” — disguised.
Well, today I took my shovel and dug that ugly root up and threw it into the fire (literally, thanks to our wood stove *grin*)
There is much more to rejection than I ever realized. It’s more dangerous and intertwined with other issues than I could see before. It was affecting me in ways I could not see. But I asked the Lord for help, opened up my heart to Him, and this morning He gave me eyes to see the truth, He shined His light into my wounds, and He lovingly showed me exactly what I needed to do if I wanted to be free of this.
I honestly thought I had already dealt with “rejection”– but the Lord let me go through some things this past week or so because He loves me, and I needed to get to a point where I could see that it ran deeper. I needed to recognize that it was still there and still affecting me.
Today the Lord shined His light on the lies I had believed and agreed with so that I could see them and then He showed me His truth. Now it’s up to me to renounce the lies, agree with the truth and move forward. I have been forgiven, and I know the truth. I’ve got to do everything I can to stay in this light of God so that I can see and be aware and on guard for anything that tries to take root in me again. I am learning that this has to be a constant thing.
I know I will come up against this thing again, probably even today. But I know the truth, I can see it, and I will claim my freedom and continue pressing forward!
Thank you, Jesus! You are the Light of my life!
“Show Your marvelous lovingkindness by Your right hand,
O You who save those who trust in You
From those who rise up against them.
Keep me as the apple of Your eye;
Hide me under the shadow of Your wings” -Psalm 17:7-8