If you read any of my journal entries, you may think that I wouldn’t have any trouble finding the “words” to communicate my heart when speaking with someone. But truthfully, finding the words to “say and speak” that fully communicate my heart is a challenge for me.

I am discovering, through this journal, that I have much more to “say and communicate” than I ever realized –even though it all only comes out fully in what I write and journal.

I don’t really understand myself –how I’m wired. But I’m thankful that God does.

He knows everything there is to know about me. He designed me, He knows me.

He’s got me on a journey that is leading me into the fullness of who He has created me to be, and I’m thankful and excited for that.

I do hope that one day, what I “write” can be equal to the words that I “speak” and the things that I “do”… an alignment –that I would be able to say and do the things exactly as I would write them, because I am realizing that this part of me is what is meant to be real –this part is meant to come to life.

Speaking of “words”, I’ve been listening to this song a lot lately by Audrey Assad and it just breaks me to pieces when I see the picture it paints in my mind as I listen to it and hear these words…

“Even Unto Death” by Audrey Assad

In all of the hard things I face, the burdens I find myself trying to carry, remembering what Jesus did for us, for me, will always put things back into perspective. He endured it all for us. Sometimes the hard things in life can seem really hard, I know I often times blow them out of proportion, and even if I am facing the very hardest thing I could ever have to face in life —He took these things to the cross for me so I wouldn’t have to carry the burden of them. The more I am reminded of this, the more I can rest on Him and remember…

“But He was pierced for our transgressions, He was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon Him, and by His stripes we are healed.” – Isaiah 53:5

–Heather