This morning I read Psalm 91 aloud. I’ve read it so many times, it’s a key verse in my life (I literally keep my key bookmark there at that verse for easy access at any given time)…
But this morning as I read it aloud I was overcome by something that came from somewhere deep. This “something” turned into a fountain of tears –the really refreshing kind though. I don’t know exactly where this came from –well I do, but I think you know what I mean, well maybe not but maybe you do.
As I read this passage that I have read many, many times it hit me like I read it for the very first time, and as I read it I could almost see every verse playing out in my head, even down to the angels protecting me.
I laid my head down for a bit just to let all of this sink in, and as I lifted my head I looked where my forehead had been resting and it said in the notes section of my study bible,
“In reference to 92:5 The term deep underscores the unfathomable and mysterious nature of God’s thoughts.”
“O Lord, how great are Your works! Your thoughts are very deep.”
God’s thoughts are deep. I’ve been “thinking” about His depths this morning after something came from some kind of “depths” within me.
There is something within me that is driven to find the truth, the deepest part –the treasure. When I want to get to know a person I want to know and understand the deepest part of them –who they really are, how they really feel about life, what shapes them into who they are, why they do the things they do…
Now –I understand I physically can’t know and understand the depth of who God is, can’t even come close while all I have is this tiny little brain… I may not “understand” it, but I think there are times when I can experience a tiniest little part of some of kind of that “depth”… enough to know that I don’t understand it. Haha
Ok – by now you may be reading this and think I’ve lost it. Maybe I have. And you know, I have “lost” a lot of things like some fears and anxieties that have kept me from having “wonder” for many years. So, I am officially okay with this. I’d rather be able to have “wonder” than to be oppressed by fear that keeps me from it.
Do you know the definition of “wonder”?
a feeling of surprise mingled with admiration, caused by something beautiful, unexpected, unfamiliar, or inexplicable.
Isn’t that lovely?
“Can you fathom the mysteries of God? Can you probe the limits of the Almighty? -Job 11:7
Why do I attempt to write about things like this that I don’t understand?
I don’t know.
I do know that I’ve never been more content and happy to realize that there’s a depth of goodness and love that I will never be able to fully understand while on this Earth. One day within eternity I will get to know and understand it more. Until then I get to live in “wonder”… a wonderful “wonder”.
“Great is the LORD and greatly to be praised; His greatness is unsearchable.” – Psalm 145:3
Can you “imagine” when one day we get to see more of the depths of God, who He is, perhaps what makes Him tick, why He does the things He does? Why He chose to love and dwell with us? Why He went to all this trouble to have us there with Him for eternity…
“When I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers … what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him?” – Psalm 8:3-4