“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11
This morning I keeping going in and out of this “zone” where each time I “wake up” again and realize I’m sitting right here at the table. Then I go into this “zone” again and wonder how long I had been sitting here in that “zone”.
In all of this, I almost feel like I’ve retraced back over my entire life, all the times when I felt the most hopeless, when I felt the least “likely”, the times when I thought it might be better to just drive myself into a wall at a very high speed. Then I quickly realized I was too afraid to meet the Lord, so I quickly went back into a sort of “daily slow death of deceptive self-destruction”.
But as I retraced, it wasn’t to retrace the misery and to dwell on that… It was because I needed to realize that in every. single. moment. the Lord was there. My Father was there.
He saw me at my very worst, my lowest of lows moments. He was there just as He is here now.
He was no different then. He’s the same now.
When I had no hope for myself,
He had hope for me. He knew who He created me to be.
His daughter. ????
As I sit here and let this sink in this morning, it just hits me with such a depth. Such a deep realization.
It’s like I can feel just a little bit of the pain He must have felt as He watched me tear myself apart every moment of every day.
But now when I see myself as “His daughter” I can almost feel this,
“How dare you treat my daughter this way?” coming from a Father’s heart.
How He must have declared over me, all of those years, “I have plans for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
…no words as I let that sink in.
He’s the kind of Father who never gives up on His child. Why? Because He knows who He created. He knows there is a hope and a future for His child. He has created us with hope and a future in mind. That is His promise for those who will take hold of it.