One of the things I struggle with the most is self-condemnation. Beating myself up.
Sometimes I’ll find myself getting lost in the cycle of beating myself up for something I felt I did wrong. Even for the smallest, stupidest things…
I’ll find myself getting overwhelmed, carried away, and pulled down in the excessive, swirling thoughts.
I’ll find myself in a state of being completely devastated with my own actions.
Then you probably know what comes from there… words we begin to speak out about ourselves. Those words are powerful, but when used in that way, they don’t lead to good things. They’re not used in the way God intended them to be used. If we’re not careful, we can be torn down and destroyed by our very own words.
Do you have any idea how many times in my life, in my younger years that I have spoken hatred over myself? I didn’t know what I was doing at the time, but I was doing something… and it was literally killing me.
So, I really have 3 choices when this happens, when I’m in this place…
I can choose to allow myself to get swept into that cycle of beating myself up, and let it absolutely tear me up and “shut me down” for at least a little while.
I can choose to seek praise from others, the reassurance that “oh, you didn’t do anything wrong, really, it’s not a big deal…” and maybe that’s the truth, and maybe it’s not. We can’t always place our trust on that.
Or I can run to the Lord…
I can run to my Heavenly Father, I can take all of these feelings, all of the pain, all of the temptation to just “shut it all down” to Him…. I can open my heart to Him, cry out to Him, ask Him to remind me of His truths, and to help me out of the vicious cycle that’s beginning to form.
I’ve done all of these things, I’ve made all of these choices, but there is nothing so beautiful, as when I take my burden to the Lord, and He does the work that only He can do… taking my pain, taking my burden, replacing it with truth and love. He has this way of taking even the most horrible and impossible situations and before we know it, we’re moving on, we’re going on, our load is lightened, and we’re moving on with Him to bigger and better things. Living life, doing all of the things He needs us to do…
The enemy knows what can happen, if he can just get us into that dangerous cycle of beating ourselves up. He doesn’t even have to lift a finger, because he knows that there is power in our words, and if he can just get us to use it in the wrong way…. it’s all downhill from there if we keep going in that direction.
Oh Lord, help us! Thank you for all of the times I have ran to you, Father, and I’ve said, “Father, here is what I have done, here is the choice I made, and I’m wanting to hate myself for it… I’m wanting to tear myself apart, Father, I’m wanting to shut myself down…. but I can’t do that, because I belong to You. I am Yours. I have things to do, and I can’t let this get in the way. So I need Your help, Lord. Set me free of this, and help me to move forward again!”
THIS is the truth! This is the truth that sets me free.
“There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.” – Romans 8:1
8 1-2 With the arrival of Jesus, the Messiah, that fateful dilemma is resolved. Those who enter into Christ’s being-here-for-us no longer have to live under a continuous, low-lying black cloud. A new power is in operation. The Spirit of life in Christ, like a strong wind, has magnificently cleared the air, freeing you from a fated lifetime of brutal tyranny at the hands of sin and death.” – Romans 8:1-2 The Message
“So now the case is closed. There remains no accusing voice of condemnation against those who are joined in life-union with Jesus, the Anointed One. For the “law” of the Spirit of life flowing through the anointing of Jesus has liberated us from the “law” of sin and death. For God achieved what the law was unable to accomplish, because the law was limited by the weakness of human nature.” – Romans 8:1-2 TPT
Thank you, Lord. ☀️Thank you for the relationship I get to have with You. I’ve got things to do, and You want me to focus on You and on Your truth so that I can get them done and keep moving forward with You.