I’m sitting here, debating in my mind…wondering how much I need to share from my private time with the Lord in this very public place.
Sometimes it feels like, “God, why do You want me to share these very personal things in a very public place like this? You know I am a private kind of person… “
I’m usually very careful what I choose to share with people. It usually takes time before I feel that it’s “safe enough” to share my heart openly, and to be completely vulnerable with people.
And yet for some reason, the Lord has led me out into to this very public place to share some rather private and personal things.
I just have to trust Him.
We’ll see where this goes…
My early morning time with the Lord is very special to me. I attempt to push everything else aside that could steal this time –that doesn’t mean things don’t try to distract me sometimes, but this time each morning is very special to me. It’s our official “meeting place” each day, me and the Lord.
But there is another place in my day-to-day, that has become a very interesting place for spending time with the Lord –interesting, and yet not so surprising….
…it’s when I’m in the shower.
(*cringe*…… “God, there I said it!” ?☺️)
Over the last year or two, the Lord has met me in that extremely vulnerable place… but it has been a place where I worship Him in complete privacy, in complete vulnerability. It’s where I cry out to Him, I am vulnerable with Him about my sins and my fears, my short comings, my concerns, and I am washed and refreshed in His cleansing water.
Did you know that it was in the shower that the Lord first helped me to lift my hands in worship? It’s the place where He helped me to break through that barrier I had with that sort of thing…. yes, I even used to feel “silly” raising my hands to Him in complete privacy. He helped me to begin to break out of that in that ordinary, every-day place…
Yesterday I found myself on the floor of the shower… just kneeling before Him, and as I cried, the water immediately washed the tears away. Tears cleaning me from within and the water cleansing me on the outside. The tears weren’t because of sadness or anything in particular, I’m not really sure where they came from, perhaps they were just the result of an overwhelming fullness of something He was doing within me. That’s the best way I know how to explain it…
(“Gosh, I feel pretty vulnerable today, God. Wonder where this is going…”)
The Lord is teaching me how to be vulnerable. He has been teaching me so much in this secret place with Him.
But the interesting thing is, all of the things that He is teaching me in this “secret place” I can’t seem to contain in that place…. these things want to come out, they want to burst forth. Not every “detail” that He shows me, there are many things that are meant to remain in secret, but what He is doing within me, in this “secret place”…. it’s not wanting to stay there in the privacy. Something about what He does in the “secret place” is meant to come out, to overflow.
I love how God loves to meet us in our every day, ordinary places.
He loves to meet us where we are. He loves to use ordinary things, and situations to meet us in extraordinary ways.
He uses simple things to help us understand the complex and profound depths. He meets us in the simple, every day situations and completely changes our lives….
“But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty…” – 1 Corinthians 1:27
Thank you, God. I trust You. ?I love Your ways. Thank You for meeting me in the simple, everyday things.