Over the course of my life, I’ve often struggled with insecurity.
Insecurity about who I am.
Insecurity about my weaknesses, my inabilities.
Insecurity about my worth.
Insecurity is defined as,
“uncertainty or anxiety about oneself; lack of confidence.”
“the state of being open to danger or threat; lack of protection.”
Over the last few years my heavenly Father has been teaching me in His Word that I don’t need to fear my weaknesses, because with Christ living within me, I can do anything I should ever face.
How else would I experience this truth if I didn’t learn to experience my own weaknesses without fearing them?
How else would I experience His strength if I didn’t accept that, yes I have weaknesses… but instead of fearing those weaknesses, I learn to rejoice in them because of what that means HE can and will do…
God has also showing me the reality and the security of His protective covering, through the promises of Psalm 91. I’m experiencing this passage of scripture in my life. He’s making this passage of His Word so real to me.
Psalm 91:1 says, “He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High, shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.” — WOW, what a promise!
So over the last couple of years, I’ve been on a journey to discover… “What is this ‘secret place,’ and how do I dwell there? How do I live there with You, God?”
Guess what? He loves to teach us about the secret place. He longs to teach us about living in this place. He’s constantly drawing us there, if we’ll allow ourselves to be drawn to Him. ?
But back to “insecurity”…
The thing about “insecurity” is… the lie of insecurity can lead us into some pretty ugly things…
Jealousy… rejection… hiding… lying… isolation…. hatred…. shame…
The enemy tries so hard to keep us from knowing who we truly are. If we only knew how much we’re loved and wanted and cherished, unconditionally…
But it’s right there in God’s Word, His message to His children, His beloved Ones,
“Look with wonder at the depth of the Father’s marvelous love that he has lavished on us! He has called us and made us his very own beloved children. The reason the world doesn’t recognize who we are is that they didn’t recognize him.” – 1 John 3:1 TPT
Our heavenly Father has so much love for us, that He is capable of loving us not, “equally”… but each “uniquely“…
That seems like an “impossible” task doesn’t it? And it’s so God. It’s so His way, it’s His Fatherly heart towards His children, that He made each of us uniquely for a purpose, and because He loves creating us, He delighted in designing us. He makes good things, doesn’t He?
And guess what? He knows that we’re going to have weaknesses as humans. He knows that we are going to have struggles. But we are not to fear our weaknesses because the truth is, His strength will carry us through our weaknesses. His power is made perfect in our weaknesses. Christ lives in us, He’s our hope and our salvation every moment of every day.
Our heavenly Father is capable of loving us each uniquely, we never need to be concerned about not being “enough” in order to be loved by Him, in order to be used by Him.
“In this way we are like the various parts of a human body. Each part gets its meaning from the body as a whole, not the other way around. The body we’re talking about is Christ’s body of chosen people. Each of us finds our meaning and function as a part of his body. But as a chopped-off finger or cut-off toe we wouldn’t amount to much, would we? So since we find ourselves fashioned into all these excellently formed and marvelously functioning parts in Christ’s body, let’s just go ahead and be what we were made to be, without enviously or pridefully comparing ourselves with each other, or trying to be something we aren’t.” – Romans 12:5-6
Here is a question…. if Almighty God….Creator of the universe… is jealous for me (Exodus 34) then why would I ever, ever ever, ever, need to feel insecure about my worth to Him?
Guess what? There is a seat at the table just for you. God thought of you, and He “loved you to life.” He wants you. You belong in His family. ?
Thank You, Father. ?Thank You for taking me under Your wing. I am secure. Thank You for loving me.
-Heather ?