“What do you do when your pen runs dry?
…You fill it back up again.”
It’s what I heard as I sat down this morning to write in my journal.
My fountain pen had run out of ink, just as I was trying to keep my eyes open to write today’s date on the page of my journal.
Let’s just say that my fountain pen “running dry” paralleled how my life has felt over the last week or so. ?(Though I think I could tell it was coming before that…)
That’s when the moment “clicked” and I heard….
“What do you do when your pen runs dry?
You fill it back up again.”
I’ll be very honest with you, lately I have been exhausted for no reason. I’ve been tired and weary, even though I get a full night of sleep.
All of this tiredness and exhaustion –even though I have been making a point to exercise and eat healthy, drink my water, take my vitamins, even making vegetable juice every day. Makes no earthly sense, right?
But I’ve experienced this before, and I’m able to recognize what’s going on. It can be hard not to give into it at times.
Do you know what else all of this weariness has been doing?
Lately I’ve struggled and wrestled with meeting the Lord each morning to write what He places on my heart to write. I’ve second guessed myself, I have wanted to shut it all down at times. At times I feel that it’s much easier to just remain silent. It has become not only a battle with weariness, but also an intense battle of the mind.
hmmm…. (yea, so I thought, you know what? I’m going to write about this.) ?
The enemy may have this plan to take me out and to take me down, to hold me back, to keep me safely muzzled, but God’s plan is, and has always been a plan that is guiding me and encouraging me toward the opposite. His plan is abundant life. Awakening. Freedom. Redemption.
I know that when things come up like this, I just have to keep going. I just have to keep trusting. Because I know that God must have something really good in store. ✨
I am in the midst of this.
…And I know that when I want to stop, is when I need to keep going the most.
When you’re going through a storm, it’s best to just keep going right through it, no stopping, no sitting down, no lagging, no looking around…. just keep moving until you’ve gotten through it.
When my fountain “pen” begins to “run out of ink,” I just need to “fill it back up again” and “continue writing” this story.
I know where my strength comes from.
I know Who my hope is in.
I know Who is leading me.
I know Who is before and behind me.
I will just cling more closely to Him.
“Now may God, the inspiration and fountain of hope, fill you to overflowing with uncontainable joy and perfect peace as you trust in him. And may the power of the Holy Spirit continually surround your life with his super-abundance until you radiate with hope!” – Romans 15:13 TPT
“I am the Lord your God,
who brought you up out of Egypt.
Open wide your mouth and I will fill it.” – Psalm 81:10“And don’t get drunk with wine, which is rebellion; instead be filled with the fullness of the Holy Spirit. And your hearts will overflow with a joyful song to the Lord Jehovah. Keep speaking to each other with words of Scripture, singing the Psalms with praises and spontaneous songs given by the Spirit! Always give thanks to Father God for every person he brings into your life in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.” – Ephesians 5:18-20 TPT
“Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” – Isaiah 40:30-31
Thank You, Father. You knew this was coming, and You have given me everything that I need to be able to endure and to keep pressing forward. You refill and renew me. ?
-Heather ?