How many times in the bible stories do we see these initial responses…
“…but God, I can’t! I’m incapable, don’t You know this?”
“…oh God, why would You ever have me in mind for that? Have You not seen my track record?”
“…God, why would You choose me for this task? Don’t You know me?”
It amazes me the way God prefers to choose and use the weak ones, the incapable ones, the unlikely ones, the outcasts… the ones the world would choose to throw away.
Even ones who have a track record of messing up, time and time again.
Even ones who still mess up, time and time again.
Even the one who is “not worthy.”
He chooses these ones to do “mighty things.”
“Here is this big, intimidating, impossible thing that I am asking you to do…. and by the way, I don’t want you to be afraid.” ??
He has a way for us. He has a way for you. He has a way for me.
“Brothers and sisters, consider who you were when God called you to salvation. Not many of you were wise scholars by human standards, nor were many of you in positions of power. Not many of you were considered the elite when you answered God’s call. But God chose those whom the world considers foolish to shame those who think they are wise, and God chose the puny and powerless to shame the high and mighty. He chose the lowly, the laughable in the world’s eyes—nobodies—so that he would shame the somebodies. For he chose what is regarded as insignificant in order to supersede what is regarded as prominent, so that there would be no place for prideful boasting in God’s presence. For it is not from man that we draw our life but from God as we are being joined to Jesus, the Anointed One. And now he is our God-given wisdom, our virtue, our holiness, and our redemption. And this fulfills what is written: If anyone boasts, let him only boast in all that the Lord has done!” – 1 Corinthians 1:26-31 TPT
What if He prefers those of us who cannot do “that thing” on our own –there’s no way possible (without Him), everyone would assume I’d fail, people would laugh, people would say, “aww look at her, trying to do that thing…”
But He says,
“…Do not be afraid of their faces, for I am with you to deliver you, says the Lord.” (Jeremiah 1:8)
Will I be found faithful and willing, will I be able to trust, or will I decide to run and hide?
Will I be found faithful?
Or will I resist His beautiful plans because I can’t trust that what He can see is the real thing? ?
Will I hesitate because of how I see myself right now? Can I not trust that He can see a great deal of things in me, that I cannot see?
“O LORD, You have searched me and known me.” – Psalm 139:1
He is my only hope. ?I find myself in this place that I am in, and the only way I can do this kind of life is to walk it with Him.
“And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.” – 1 Peter 5:10