You know how I wrote that post yesterday called,
“You Don’t Have to Hide“?
Well guess what…. after I wrote that post, all I wanted to do later in the day was hide.
Isn’t that interesting?
This morning and last night has felt like a lot of resistance.
I guess that’s to be expected, right?
At least if I am going in the right direction.
The push and the pull, the tug and the draw.
One side driven by lies and fear, the other driven by truth and love.
The nagging voices of the enemy, and the “Come on, I love you, keep going, I’m with you!” of the Lord.
The annoyance of the inconvenient circumstance, and the reminder to be thankful in spite of a really tough day.
The discouragement from a physical affliction, and the encouragement because He is my Healer, and I can thank Him for that, even when I haven’t seen it yet.
There’s this place there in the middle where it’s hard, where I feel both sides, where I feel the “fight”…
…where I want to do one thing and yet I know I have to do another.
This place where I want to hide, but I know I need to stay in the light.
This place where I want to give up, but I know I need to stay in the fight.
This place where I want to grumble, but I know I need to be thankful.
This place where I want to lay down, but I know I have to keep going.
Do you ever find yourself in that place?
Lord, You are my strength and my endurance when I am weak and want to lay down, when I want to run and hide, and when I want to gripe and grumble. When I am faced with these kinds of things that attempt to tear me away from You, I remember that You have made me an overcomer, because YOU are an overcomer, and You live in me! I am made to live victoriously in this very place that I’m in! Thank You, Jesus!