Looking back over 2019, I can honestly say that it was one of the most challenging, uncertain, stressful, living-on-the-edge kind of years for us.
2019 was unlike any other kind of year I have ever experienced in my life.
In the way 2019 stretched me…
In the way it pressed me…
2019 felt like…”being pressed and pushed till everything was all used up, and pressed out.”
2019 took everything I had and more.
In 2019, I had to press through a lot in order to keep going, and by the end of the year, I started feeling the need for “rest.”
In fact, my body started basically wanting to shut down and I found myself not being able to do the things I wanted to be able to do.
I was exhausted, my body was weak, my body was hurting, and little by little, new health issues began to surface.
For a long time, I would press through the pain and just keep going.
Until I couldn’t any longer.
For a long time, I didn’t know what the issue was, and it was concerning, it was frustrating, it was scary.
For a while, I got to the point where I honestly didn’t know if I would ever be able to feel well enough again to do the things I always used to do in my life.
Finally, after much prayer, after a time of unknown and uncertainty…
God began to reveal to me what my body needed, and in this time, especially right at the edge… it was like my body began a sort of “shut down”…. and so my life entered into this sort of “shut down”…
Patterns surfaced. And God began to reveal to me, showing me that little glimpse that He had been making a way, all along…
And then He led me into a time of discovery…
What was the root of my issues?
Major “misalignment” in my upper spine, largely from a fall I had early last year. My “body” hasn’t been able to “function” and “work” as it was created to function. It hasn’t been able to “fight off sickness” as it was created to, my “body” hasn’t been able to properly “heal” as it was created to….
Because I had some major structural issues in my spine, and in my muscles, almost all of my organs were beginning to suffer and not function as they should function.
And what is happening in my life right now? What did God bring me into?
I’m now being put into proper “alignment.”
My body is learning to restructure, so that it can work and function as it was created to.
My immune system is being repaired.
My body is beginning to be able to heal again.
And what am I being forced to do in this time while I recover, especially at the beginning?
My body was so misaligned and twisted out of order, that when my bones were “shifted into place” it so threw my body off —and my system, my brain, my muscles and tendons and all of that is having to go through a process to get in line.
It takes a process for me to restructure.
What is my body heading towards?
Wellness. Completeness. Health and healing. Recovery.
Revival. Awakening. Rejuvenation. Restoration of life.
So, as I look to these times. As I look at this time of everything coming to a screeching halt. As I look to what many of the prophets are saying about these times we are living in —this time of “reset” and “rest”…
And then I look to my own life, what I’ve been going through in my own body, what I am going through now, and where I am heading, and how God has been getting me here to this “process” all along…
I have this funny feeling that God is giving me a deeper understanding.
And it brings me comfort. It brings me joy and peace and excitement of what’s to come, not only for my own life, but for the Church, for God’s people.
It’s like He’s helping me to see what He’s doing, as a whole, by showing me some of it in my own life, in my own body.
This morning He led me to Psalm 95:6-11, and I feel that this passage from the Word is yet another plead for repentance, a calling and a drawing toward His heart, the most tender-loving kind of warning…
“Oh come, let us worship and bow down;
Let us kneel before the Lord our Maker.
For He is our God,
And we are the people of His pasture,
And the sheep of His hand.
Today, if you will hear His voice:
“Do not harden your hearts, as in the rebellion,
As in the day of trial in the wilderness,
When your fathers tested Me;
They tried Me, though they saw My work.
For forty years I was grieved with that generation,
And said, ‘It is a people who go astray in their hearts,
And they do not know My ways.’
So I swore in My wrath,
‘They shall not enter My rest.’ ”
But now, in this time, He is calling us to this place of rest so that He can do the work that needs to be done, the work that is needed to create within us, the character that is needed, the capacity that is needed to be built.
This is an opportunity from His heart! He’s building in us, He’s preparing us.
Thank You, Father, for knowing what we need, for seeing what we cannot see. You lead us in Your way because You love us, and You want us close to Your heart. Thank You for bringing us through the process that leads us to turn our hearts toward You…. and then You bring us back into “alignment”… You set us back straight... and You build within us, the “backbone” You know that we need as Your church body in this time. You restore us to health. You revive us. You bring us back to life. You prepare us for what’s to come. You’ve “got our backs” ☀️?