Why do I write these every day? I still ponder this question sometimes.
I still don’t really know how or why it has happened this way…
All I know, is that God often leads me to write, openly and vulnerably… about the things I deal with in my own heart, and about our beautiful times together when He helps me through these things. ?☀️
We’ve all been in situations where we’ve felt the sting of rejection.
But then there are some situations that seem to sting much harder, and make us feel a flood of…
“I’m not good enough”s and “nobody wants me around”s and “I’m just a bother”s and “I’m just not _____ enough.” (blah blah blah blah)
And out of nowhere, alllllll of those little insecurities rise right to the surface and seem to be magnified and justified and all blown up out of proportion in that moment, all at the same time… “I knew it!” ?
Yep, there comes a point in time where I have to make a decision…
I can choose to stop in my tracks…and to turn to my Heavenly Father,
“Father…..what IS this?? This thing hurts….I am turning to You right now, Lord! Will You help me to sort this out?”
I can continue down a dark, dangerous, emotional, irrational trail of lies that leads me into all kinds of things I don’t even want to mention.
God is so good to give us the choice, and He also is so good to remind us that the remedy is running to Him—the One who loves us unconditionally, the One who is perfect, the One who so lovingly reveals what’s going on beneath the surface before it slowly leads to death and destruction.
He is the One who can make the situation somehow “fizzle” away —a wound that could potentially fester and become infected if I let it be, if I let it remain.
“Father…thank You for making me aware of this, for showing me that there’s something not right here in my heart right now. Will You soothe the pain from this situation? And Lord, whatever these things are stemming from, forgive me for these wrong attitudes, will You wash them away? Will You pull up these roots? Will You purify my heart? I don’t want these things to remain in me. Thank You for revealing that these roots are hiding there so that You and I can take care of this…”
Isn’t He so good to show us these things? There is freedom and hope in the light of His truth!
We can be frustrated about having to go through the pain of the situation, or we can be thankful that God allowed it so that we could have the opportunity to see and discover that something wasn’t quite right under the surface of my heart.… it’s an opportunity to take my heart to Him to purify and repair.
…and an opportunity to be in awe and wonder of the way He works. ??
The enemy is trying all kinds of schemes—nothing new. He’s attempting to turn us against each other, he’s attempting to shut us down, he’s attempting to cause us to run and hide, he’s attempting to get us to quit, and he’s attempting to cause us to be offended…
His goal? Division and self-destruction. ?
But here is the reminder the Lord is giving me this morning:
Run straight to the Father, get it out there in His light, confess to Him… He has a way of helping us to accurately see the situation in the light of His truth and in the safety of His love.
How He has a way with hearts… ? ☀️
Walking in the Light
5 This is the message we have heard from him and proclaim to you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all. 6 If we say we have fellowship with him while we walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. 7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin. 8 If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. 9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 10 If we say we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.1 John 1:5-10 ESV
Once that “thing” is in the light, it doesn’t stand a chance. Let’s just go ahead and get it all out there. ☀️
Thank You, Father. ?