Over the last couple of days, I’ve been thinking back to one of the harshest, darkest seasons of my adult life…
And when I think back on this season… it’s like I can see more and more layers of lessons learned…. more and more lessons that I can pull from this season that I endured… and I can see more and more of how God made something so glorious and good out of a season that felt so uncertain and dark at that time.
…a season that the enemy intended on using to pull us from what God had in store for our lives… but God.... ?
“It is God who arms me with strength, And makes my way perfect.”—Psalm 18:32
But God knew what He was allowing…
But God knew how He was gonna turn it all around…
He knew how He was going to work it all out.
And He knew that He was going to use the situation for good, and for His purpose, and for His plans for our lives. ?
He knew it was all going to backfire on the enemy.
He had already gone before us, to work it out for good. ?☀️
With this particular season being on my heart the last couple of days, I went and pulled the journal I was writing in from around that time…
It was a small, boring, plain black journal….
I see now how it represents what it was like living in that season, at the time…. in many ways it felt like being in the dark, not knowing what was going to unfold—and within the dark, yes, the enemy was there waiting with a “trap”….
So I went to the pages of this journal where I was writing about a particular situation we found ourselves suddenly swept away in…
It was an extremely vulnerable season for me, and for us.
I was just learning about hearing God for myself, I was just learning to realize that yes, I could hear God, that He would lead me in the way I should take for my life. I was just really learning and grasping that I could hear Him for myself…
And in the pages of my journal I’m crying out to God….
“God! (insert my notes about what I’m feeling, what I’m sensing, what I am realizing, what I am knowing in my spirit)….
“God…..I just know something isn’t right…. help!”
…and I’m crying out to Him about how to handle this situation, about what I am to do, and I’m declaring that in Him, I will not be deceived, that I will not be pulled from His plan for my life…and I’m declaring to Him, that I trust Him, and that He is my Protector, and that He is my Deliverer.
And I go from these pages of my journal—where I am writing from the place of feeling as though I am being held captive in the camp of the enemy… to a few pages forward from there… and I see the situation begin to unfold, I see the truth coming out, I see the light shining into the situation… and I watch as the schemes of the enemy are unveiled and brought into the light. ✨
And I see as we come into a clearing…. as God reveals what He was teaching us and showing us all the way through that situation.
And I can see the lessons now…
And I can even see in the pages leading up to that really hard season…. how God was already preparing me leading up to it, how He was putting within me, dreams, and prayers to pray….
I can see that He was using that “crash course” to teach me some things that I would only be able to learn in that way.
And I know…
That there is still so much more to be realized and learned…. there is still so much yet to be discovered…about what He has gone ahead to prepare for us.
Oh, how we can trust Him. ?✨
We can trust Him. ??
Yes, He allows us to go through some really. hard. things sometimes…
Yes, sometimes we find ourselves in a place of not being able to see what the situation really is while we’re in it because the darkness seems so dark…
But He so faithfully goes before us, and then He delivers us through it in a way that is more beautiful and glorious than we could ever imagine. ✨
God, You are FAITHFUL!
You bring us through the dark and “uncertain” seasons, the attempts of the enemy…. we need not fear these attempts because You have already gone ahead to prepare a place of VICTORY for us! ?
Thank You, Father! —How You’ve taken such care of me, and with a tenderness—a lavishness that I feel I do not deserve. ?
“So David went to Baal-perazim and defeated the Philistines there. “The LORD did it!” David exclaimed. “He burst through my enemies like a raging flood!” So he named that place Baal-perazim (which means “the Lord who bursts through”).”—2 Samuel 5:20
I love You, Lord. ?