Sometimes, when I come to meet the Lord at the table…
I feel a bit “numb” at the start…
I feel a bit disconnected.
Whenever I notice that, I just stop, and I close my eyes, and I push everything away, and I open my hands to Him…
And I come to Him. I just open up to Him…
I seek Him.
And I always, always find Him. ?
It happened just this morning…
“Good Morning, Lord. Here I am. I’ve come to sit with You, but I’ll be honest, I’m feeling a little bit numb right now. I’m feeling a sense of being “disconnected” from You this morning….even though I know I’m not far from You.”
And so I just stopped…
And I closed my eyes…
And I opened up my hands to Him, as I invited Him to come close to my heart, and then I waited for Him, knowing that He would come close…
And then I felt Him there… ??✨
It was like a sudden wave of tenderness and loving-kindness washed over me, and I heard Him speak this into my heart…
“I’m right here…
I’m right… here— My daughter.” ?
And it was like I felt Him smiling upon me. ☀️
It was like I felt His closeness, His nearness. ?
Then when I began writing these things down into my journal…
Attempting to express what I felt as this “tenderness” came…
I heard,
“Psalm 31:16”
So I went there, and it says,
“Make your face to shine on your servant. Save me in your loving kindness.”—Psalm 31:16
And in The Passion Translation it reads like this,
“Smile on me, your servant.
Let your undying love and glorious grace
save me from all this gloom.”
When we seek Him, we will find Him.
And He will make His face shine upon us.
And He will smile upon us.
He smiles upon us like a Father who is smiling and adoring His beloved child.
And He invites us to dwell in this place of living in His countenance…
“The LORD lift up his countenance on you, and give you peace.“—Numbers 6:26
No matter where you are…
No matter what you are doing…
No matter how distant you may feel at the start…
You can come to Him.
Let nothing hinder you.
He invites you to come.
Run to Him! With all of your heart, with all of your might! ???♀️?☀️ (He’s just right there, whether you realize it or not.)
And He will meet you with a wave of His tenderness and His loving-kindness. ??
And He will smile upon you. Because He loves when you come to Him.
“And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart.“—Jeremiah 29:13
Thank You, Father. ?
-Heather ?