I remember in the very, very beginning of when I started facing some things in my heart, before the Lord…
When I came into the light…
It was more like I came into a realization—I began to recognize—that ‘my way’ of living life just wasn’t working.
And in that time, I remember describing, something that I kept “seeing”…
“it was like I could see myself, and I was just covered with alllllll of these band-aids.”
And what I didn’t realize at the time, was that I was actually probably seeing something in the spirit.
And somehow I knew at the time, that God was wanting to start removing these band-aids, one by one, so that I could begin healing.
Oh, how I wanted Him to just “snap His fingers” and “fix me” right away. I had hoped it would be that way.
But I soon realized, that for some reason… God wanted to take me through more of a “process” than a “quick fix” regarding many of the issues I was dealing with in my life.
I soon realized that it wasn’t going to be as quick as I thought I wanted it to be.
But you know, sometimes He’s got something “better” in store, than just a “quick fix”…. He’s got something bigger and better…
And I’m realizing now, that part of the reason He’s doing it this way, is because He’s wanting to teach me some deeper things in the process, in this journey with Him.
I honestly think I learn best that way. Trying and failing, and learning to push through the fears of trying again…
And this learning process has been kind of like in math class, when the teacher asks you to “show your work“….it’s to make sure you really understand and grasp the process that you’ve been learning in order to solve the problem, in order to get to the answer.
It’s like He’s wanting me to be able to learn and grasp, and realize and record these lessons from my process with Him so thoroughly, so deeply, so “through and through”…
He’s wanting to give me deeper understanding through these experiences with Him.
Through all of my “trials and errors”…
He wants me to “really get it.”
He wants all of these lessons with Him to really sink into the deepest places of my heart.
I don’t know the full reason “why”— but I do know that, “here I am” and “here is what I’m learning” in all of this with Him, and for me… it has been a process, it has been a journey, it has been—uncovering “band-aid by band-aid” with Him…one “wound” at a time.
And taking this journey with Him, a journey that sometimes feels “fast” and sometimes feels “slow”…
Every bit of it is worth it.
Every bit of waiting—is worth it.
Every bit of my time in the “unknown”—is worth it.
And I’m learning,
that all of this
is far more about me growing in closeness with Him
than it is about me doing everything “just right.”
His perfecting process is perfect.
And I’m learning to trust Him in everything.
And that can be a process.
And through all of this…
I never could have dreamed…
…just how wonderful it would be, to live in a journey of discovering
who He really is,
and who He has really made me to be. 💖🌈
He reminded me again this morning, that He sings over me…
“For the LORD your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.”—Zephaniah 3:17
And He prompted me to ask Him something…
“…Ask Me for ears to hear these songs…”
And so I asked…
“Father, will You give me ears to be able to hear what You are singing over me right now? I want to hear Your songs… I want to hear Your words, I want to hear the tone—the sound— of Your beautiful voice as You sing over me from Your heart…”
And I heard “the sound”—the tone—of His song over me this morning. 💓✨
And I melted before Him, yet again. 💖
He’s the kind of Father who is always ready to fill our ears with the beautiful song He’s singing over us.
He wants us to hear His song, He wants us to know His heart.
He wants us to know how He really feels about us, as His beloved Sons and Daughters.
“See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him. Dear friends, now we are children of God, and what we will be has not yet been made known. But we know that when Christ appears, we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is. All who have this hope in him purify themselves, just as he is pure.”—1 John 3:1-3
Thank You, Father. 💝