Can I be honest?
I love writing,
I find healing in putting words onto the page…
…but I don’t feel like writing today.
I don’t feel like letting you in on where I am today.
as God so often does…
He nudges me. 💓🍃☀️
And I guess,
rather than hiding away,
He wants me to face whatever this is
…right here before you,
And I guess,
He would like me to face all of these things
that I don’t feel like facing today.
To press through
whatever this is…
But I don’t like appearing weak.
I don’t like showing my face on days
that I feel I haven’t “got it all together” enough.
“…what will they think? What will they gather? What will they assume?“
But I know,
that in times like these,
He’s simply asking me to show up,
to be honest,
and to simply be present with Him,
within the moment,
wherever He leads.
And then somehow…
He does exactly, and precisely
what He desires to do.
So here I am, Lord.
Do it, Lord. 💖
Do whatever You desire to do,
and in the way that only You can.
And I’m thankful,
that You can even use these imperfect words
presented in this imperfect way…
as I’m living through this imperfect day.
Here are these words
that never seem “good enough” to me.
…and yet You can use them
to do what You desire to do
in the most perfect kind of way…
God, I don’t always understand the “why”
but I know,
that You are teaching me to trust You…
…layer upon layer,
situation by situation,
moment by moment,
day by day…
And I hear You speak into my heart,
“Come here, come out, come forth into the light with Me. You may have deemed yourself ‘not good enough’ to be seen or heard today, but I desire to ‘ignite’ you, and to use you to shine My light, yes—even you, and yes…. even today.”
Thank You, Father. 💝