Can I be honest?
I’ve been struggling in my mind lately.
I’ve been struggling
with some of the things that have come into the light within my heart…
Just when things seem to be smooth-sailing for a bit,
I seem to run into the next thing to overcome.
But I’m thankful that the journey is like that.
Because I know…
that there are many things yet to be overcome in this life…
…in my heart,
and in my mind…
And God is faithful to lead me into the next thing that I need to face,
and the next,
and the next…
There will always be “layer upon layer” to work through in this life with Him.
He is setting me free. 💓
I’m working on not trying to seem so “perfectly fine” all the time.
I face tremendous fear of making mistakes sometimes,
fear of doing things wrong,
fear of not being good enough in the things that I attempt to do…
It’s easy to slip into sometimes, trying to be “perfect”…
It’s easy to try it
without even realizing it…
I think that’s part of why God led me to write this very public blog.
I’m learning to put myself out there.
I’m learning to face feelings of insecurity,
feelings of rejection, both real and perceived.
It’s a place where I can practice transparency.
It’s a place where I can practice…
…just being me, imperfectly.
It can be a scary, vulnerable thing.
And the thing is…
God has never asked me to try and be
…except who He created me to be.
And He desires this so fiercely for me. 💝
It matters to Him greatly, that I step into simply being me.
Isn’t that something? I’m thankful that He knows what He’s doing.
I’m thankful that He works, so patiently.
Weaknesses, imperfections, shortcomings… He’s taken care of it all.
And it so goes beyond just my life.
I know that it goes far beyond what I can perceive.
So Father, here I am…
living this life with you
one day at a time,
one lesson at a time…
…just learning to be okay with being me, with You, God…
Lord Jesus, You always lead me into the light.
And I’m safe here.
And with You, I can do this,
I can live this life, while living it imperfectly as “me”…
You empower me to be who You’ve created me to be.
“You alone created my inner being. You knitted me together inside my mother. I will give thanks to you because I have been so amazingly and miraculously made. Your works are miraculous, and my soul is fully aware of this.”—Psalm 139:13-14
“O my dove in the clefts of the rock, in the crevices of the cliff, let me see your face, let me hear your voice; for your voice is sweet, and your countenance is lovely.”—Song of Solomon 2:14
Thank You, Father. 💝