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1.28.2022 – “Am I still okay?”

Heavenly Father, I’m struggling

I’m having to work through some things

that I never expected would be this much of a struggle to work through at this point in my life.

It’s humbling.

How life seems to bring our weaknesses right out of us…

Things that we don’t always like to see about ourselves.

And I’m not so sure I’m doing as well with “all of this”

as I hoped and expected to…

Why is it…

that I place so much extra pressure on myself,

when I know that it’s completely unnecessary?

My mind says,

“I’m okay if I’m making enough progress,

if I’m excelling,

if I’m always moving forward (in my idea of moving forward)…”

But what about the times when I’m not?

What if I have to take 10 steps back?

“Am I still okay?”

My mind says, “oh no, oh no, oh no…..not okay…”

But really, the answer is yes.

“I’m okay.”

Sometimes God allows us to be in the uncomfortable place of struggling through something.

Sometimes He allows us to be in the place of, “not doing as well at something as we’d like to”…

Because He wants us to grow in trust

that even when we struggle or stumble through something,

even if we “completely blow it”, in our efforts at trying

even if we discover just how weak and small we really are…

He is still just right thereGod Almighty is with me. 💖

Can I trust Him, while I’m in this kind of place…

to walk me through the lessons,

that He wants me to gain?

Just as He always has

That I might see,

that I might behold

that He can and will continue to grow me

even in these kinds of places…

He’s growing my roots, He’s growing my capacity.

He is faithful.

He is good.

And He is always with me.

“So do not fear — for I am with you; do not be dismayed — for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with My righteous right hand!“— Isaiah 41:10

“And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.”—Philippians 1:6

They are like trees planted along a riverbank, with roots that reach deep into the water. Such trees are not bothered by the heat or worried by long months of drought. Their leaves stay green, and they never stop producing fruit.“—Jeremiah 17:8

Thank You, Lord.

-Heather 🌺

2 thoughts on “1.28.2022 – “Am I still okay?”

  1. I’ve been going through one of the toughest times in my life, a separation and impending divorce, your blog has provided me with much needed comfort and guidance through the holy spirit, I dont know where I would be right now if not for yours and others, so in your moments of struggle know you are not alone and I will pray for you, remember be bold and courageous.

    1. Hey Brian, Thank you so much for sharing about what you are facing right now. God is so good to provide all that we need to endure though things that seem impossible to face and endure through. I am so thankful for the Holy Spirit living and breathing and working through others in Christ–our brothers and sisters. Thank you for sharing about how God has encouraged you, it blesses me to know that God is moving, that He is working through these words that He leads me to write on here. It can be a challenge sometimes to continue through the resistance, but God always seems to reveal what He’s up to just like in messages like yours. May God continue to carry you through this season that you are facing with His peace and may it be such a beautiful journey “through” this with the Lord, that one day you’ll even be able to look back on this hard season, seeing it as a sweet time within the secret place of His presence. Bless you, and thank you for writing! – Heather

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