Heavenly Father, I’m struggling…
I’m having to work through some things
that I never expected would be this much of a struggle to work through at this point in my life.
How life seems to bring our weaknesses right out of us…
Things that we don’t always like to see about ourselves.
And I’m not so sure I’m doing as well with “all of this”
as I hoped and expected to…
Why is it…
that I place so much extra pressure on myself,
when I know that it’s completely unnecessary?
My mind says,
“I’m okay if I’m making enough progress,
if I’m excelling,
if I’m always moving forward (in my idea of moving forward)…”
But what about the times when I’m not?
What if I have to take 10 steps back?
“Am I still okay?”
My mind says, “oh no, oh no, oh no…..not okay…”
But really, the answer is yes.
Sometimes God allows us to be in the uncomfortable place of struggling through something.
Sometimes He allows us to be in the place of, “not doing as well at something as we’d like to”…
Because He wants us to grow in trust…
that even when we struggle or stumble through something,
even if we “completely blow it”, in our efforts at trying
even if we discover just how weak and small we really are…
He is still just right there—God Almighty is with me. 💖
Can I trust Him, while I’m in this kind of place…
to walk me through the lessons,
that He wants me to gain?
Just as He always has…
That I might see,
that I might behold…
that He can and will continue to grow me
even in these kinds of places…
He’s growing my roots, He’s growing my capacity.
He is faithful.
He is good.
And He is always with me.
“So do not fear — for I am with you; do not be dismayed — for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with My righteous right hand!“— Isaiah 41:10
“And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.”—Philippians 1:6
“They are like trees planted along a riverbank, with roots that reach deep into the water. Such trees are not bothered by the heat or worried by long months of drought. Their leaves stay green, and they never stop producing fruit.“—Jeremiah 17:8
Thank You, Lord.