So I’m going through this thing right now…
You see, “writing” has been “what I do”…
…my preferred way of communication…
The words have flowed onto the page every day for a few years now,
and really, for most of my life, off and on…
And while I still write in my every day for different kinds of things,
I am finding…
…that the words are not flowing in the way that they used to
within my personal time,
and within my time with the Lord each day.
“What is this, God? Have I done something wrong?
Are You unhappy with me?
Did I set ‘my pen’ down?
…did You take it away?”
I’ve had this conversation with the Lord.
Here is where I am…
I am realizing…
that maybe it’s just that God is nudging me to overcome some new kinds of things.
Over the last couple of months, I’ve felt the nudge
and the inspiration
to “chronicle” my day
in a different kind of way…
And that way has been within “video” and not so much in writing as I have been used to.
Do you know how scary and uncomfortable being on a camera or talking to a camera has been for me?
A girl who once hated herself, and told herself so every time she looked into the mirror.
So when I felt the inspiration to do this,
when I sensed the nudge to try,
I was quite surprised…
Do you know that I “write”…
but “writer” is not my identity.
“Writing” or “taking photos” or anything that I could ever do… is not what gives me my identity or worth in His eyes.
It’s who I am, in Christ.
And I am who God says I am to be, in Christ. 🌺
And I have invited Him to do what He wants to do through me, within my life.
And He is building me
and shaping me
into the “me”
that He has purposefully designed me to be.
I say all of this to say…
Don’t be surprised
if it feels like God has taken something away in your life…
Yes, talk with Him about it,
yes, check your heart, and seek His heart…
But it could be
that He’s just wanting to take you into a new territory
a different landscape
that will continue shaping you
and growing you
into the “you” that He has always dreamed you would be.
He knows we need “change.”
And I’m hanging on, and trusting Him.
Thank You, Father. 💝